You want to know what is unfair?

It is unfair that my son has to spend the rest of his life with a mom who is tarnished.

It is unfair that my son has to spend the rest of his life with a mom who doesn’t know who she is. 

It is unfair that my son has to spend the rest of his life with a mom who doesn’t understand faith.

It is unfair that people in this world can live so blindly in joy and love.

It is unfair that you can just spend the rest of your life not having to question everything you do.

It is unfair that I have to spend every day wondering when I will cry next.

It is unfair that the simplest of things will take me back to some of the worst days of my life. 

It is unfair that you get to look at your child every day.

It is unfair that you get to take pictures at your child’s prom, graduation and wedding.

It is unfair that you will get to see your child live on through your grandchildren and great-grandchildren.

It is unfair that you get to use your newborn baby or toddler as an excuse not to do something.

It is unfair when you say at least you have a child at home. 

It is unfair when you say at least you can have another one. 

It is unfair that I have to look at my husband and wonder if he sees failure when he looks at me. 

And it is unfair when you say it’s God’s plan.